I found your letter under my pile of Quilting For You magazines and notice it is dated some time ago; I do hope my advice does not come too late!
I am unfamiliar with the act that you describe in your letter and neither could I find it in my most trusted Clare Rayner manual, the 1978 edition. But, in my opinion, I really don’t think it’s sensible to do that to your boyfriend, dear – it doesn't sound particularly hygienic.
What you need is something to keep yourself occupied and increase your sense of self-worth; I assume you have a job? May I suggest you take up a hobby; the guides always come up with some wonderful examples for their hobby badge! Just last week, one gave our group a fascinating talk on growing exotic plants in her bedroom, although between you and me, she did giggle rather too much throughout – nerves, I expect!
You could discover more about growing exotic plants by reading a book, or perhaps by mixing with people who share the same interest? And, Tu Lisa my dear, do try and remember to put some trousers on when you leave the house next time: you’d clearly forgotten in that picture you sent me of yourself, a lovely top though it was – you don’t want to catch your death of cold. And pants too, dear. Always pants. Even most scout groups insist on underwear these days, although one can still glimpse a naked beaver from time to time!
Let me know how you get on, dear. All the best!